Whether you’re celebrating Christmas today or you’ve celebrated another holiday instead, I’m guessing you likely are preparing for 2008 ~ and maybe even making resolutions for the new year.
New Year’s is a huge thing for me, and only seems to get more important with each year. Maybe that’s because I’m a New Years Day baby ~ each New Year is truly a whole new, fresh-from-day-one year for me ~ 365 days more (or 366, depending) gone, another 365 (or so) ahead ~ with my birthday to punctuate the new opportunities that the New Year symbolizes.
I savor the opportunity to reflect on the past year of my life and figure out what’s worked for me, how far I’ve come, and how much further I have to go.
Sadly, the past year has been a challenging one for me. I’ve accomplished a lot ~ my world has come alive with opportunities and milestones, for which I am both thankful and proud.
Personally, however, I have been living very out-of-harmony with the very spirit of who I am and what I believe. I believe your actions must coincide with your mind, heart and soul. As a result of living out of accordance with “me”, my back is a gigantic kink, my heart is heavy and my cheeks are wet far too often.
And here comes my Jerry McGuire-style mission statement/awakening.
I’m not trying to be a sadsac, and I realize every day that I am so unbelievably blessed… but this gloom weighs on me constantly now ~ to the point that I’ve missed out on my favorite time of year ~ the holidays (apologies to my lovely colleagues and to Marc ~ all of whom have been experiencing my bah-humbugginess). The holidays are still sweet, but bittersweet this year, but consolation lies in knowing not all holidays will be this hard odd.
I feel a weight starting to slough off of me, however, and that ginormous sachel of concrete is called 2007. Each chunk of cynderblock I’m crawling from under is a different aspect of the me that I know but have ignored.
I’m looking forward to making my resolutions ~ and living by them. Some will be serious. Some will be silly. Many will be “green” in some fashion. But they are all personal and important to me.
I’ll share my resolutions with you, one by one, over the next days, and I would love to hear yours as well.
So as sad as I am that the holidays have all washed away without feeling much whimsy and passion, I joyfully look ahead at the fact that I have a fresh chance to rebegin ~ who I am and what I do ~ together as the united power-couple they should be.
Thank you for letting me vent ~ and with nothing officially green to share ~ but just sharing a bit of who I am… and why.